tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-168030552024-02-04T03:14:15.269+08:00All in my mind.........lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.comBlogger30125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-19126623601196066672010-12-23T03:58:00.003+08:002010-12-23T04:26:00.675+08:00Another UNhappy birthday to me<em></em><br /><em>this is the 2nd year i've been miserable on my birthday. no one to celebrate it with me / for me. </em><br /><em></em><br /><em>last year it was the disaster before and during dinner. completely ruin the entire night for me. didn't even touch the cake. </em><br /><em></em><br /><em>this year, i teared up and started to cry. went for a long swim just to not think about how depressed i am and to just be alone. i thought i could disappear for a moment, but i didn't. no friends, no cake, no laughter.</em><br /><br /><em>*special note: thanks babe for the early present. it was really well thought of. i know how hard you try. secretly, i wish i could tell you that all i really wanted was someone to celebrate it with, not something*</em><br /><em></em><br /><em>i miss celebrating and making a whole lot of noise with my besties and family back home. especially now when i see a bowl of "tong yuen", i miss them even more. </em><br /><br /><em>i was born on a very special day. the first day of the winter solstice and the first day on the chinese calendar. according to tradition, families will gather together, like a reunion, to celebrate this day.</em><br /><br /><em>a bowl of "tong yuen" for everyone to signify, reunion, family and unity. </em><br /><br /><em>it's no wonder i feel so depress on my birthday. i was told as a child, that you shouldn't cry on your birthday. it is meant to be a joyous day for you to celebrate your birth and on top of that, it is the first day of the year. </em><br /><br /><em>basically, to those who hold strongly to chinese customs and traditions, my birth signifies a new begining. come to think of it, that is actually quite a meaningful idea for me to hold on to. </em><br /><em></em><br /><em>being so far away from my family, i do miss them on days like these. every year on this day, everyone would gather for 2 reasons, one to celebrate my birthday and two, the reunion. i guess we were wrong to put it in that order. from this year on, celebrating the coming together of my family will come first, and just to top it up, "hey, it's my birthday too"</em><br /><em></em><br /><em>funny how i never put so much thought into the MUST HAVE dinner back at home on the 22nd of December. now i understand. thanks mom, for making Johnathan and i come home for the dinner every year on this very special day. </em><br /><em></em><br /><em>i will always keep that in mind, and i will make it my duty to have my kids home for dinner on this very special day each year, no matter what. </em><br /><em></em><br /><em>i guess blogging does work. i feel much better now and i've learnt something new and have something significant to my culture to hold on to. </em><br /><em></em><br /><em>thanks dad for telling us about our culture and traditions. it is you who made me see the importance of celebrating and adhering to our heritage. </em><br /><em></em><br /><em>i love you mom & dad. </em><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-34797742513875348762007-07-18T18:52:00.001+08:002007-07-18T18:55:27.524+08:00<span style="color:#663300;"><span><i><span><span>I recently read that love is entirely a matter of chemistry. That must be why my wife treats me like toxic waste. David Bissonette <br/><br/><br/>When a man steals your wife, there is no better revenge than to let him keep her. Sacha Guitry <br/><br/><br/>After marriage, husband and wife become two sides of a coin; they just can't face each other, but still they stay together. Hemant Joshi <br/><br/><br/>By all means marry. If you get a good wife, you'll be happy. If you get a bad one, you'll become a philosopher. Socrates <br/><br/><br/>Woman inspires us to great things, and prevents us from achieving them. Dumas <br/><br/><br/>The great question... which I have not been able to answer... is, "What does a woman want?" Sigmund Freud <br/><br/><br/>I had some words with my wife, and she had some paragraphs with me. Anonymous <br/><br/><br/>"Some people ask the secret of our long marriage. We take time to go to a restaurant two times a week. A little candlelight, dinner, soft music and dancing. She goes Tuesdays, I go Fridays." Henry Youngman <br/><br/><br/>"I don't worry about terrorism. I was married for two years." Sam Kinison "There's a way of transferring funds that is even faster than electronic banking. It's called marriage." James Holt McGavran <br/><br/><br/>"I've had bad luck with both my wives. The first one left me and the second one didn't." Patrick Murray <br/><br/><br/>Two secrets to keep your marriage brimming <br/><br/>1. Whenever you're wrong, admit it, <br/><br/>2. Whenever you're right, shut up. Nash <br/><br/><br/>The most effective way to remember your wife's birthday is to forget it once... Anonymous <br/><br/><br/>You know what I did before I married? Anything I wanted to. Henny Youngman My wife and I were happy for twenty years. Then we met. Rodney Dangerfield <br/><br/><br/>A good wife always forgives her husband when she's wrong. Milton Berle <br/><br/><br/>Marriage is the only war where one sleeps with the enemy. Anonymous <br/><br/><br/>A man inserted an 'ad' in the classifieds: "Wife wanted". Next day he received a hundred letters. They all said the same thing: "You can have mine." Anonymous <br/><br/><br/>First Guy (proudly): "My wife's an angel!" <br/><br/>Second Guy "You're lucky, mine's still alive."</span></span></i></span></span><br/><br/><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-28863218957127113432007-07-18T18:50:00.000+08:002007-07-18T18:55:54.263+08:00Am i with the right person?<span style="color:#000099;"><span><i><span><span>During one of our seminars, a woman asked a<br/>common question.<br/><br/>She said,” How do I know if I am with the right<br/>person?"<br/><br/>I noticed that there was a man sitting next to her<br/>so I said, "It depends. Is that your partner?"<br/>In all seriousness, she answered "How do you<br/>know?"<br/><br/>Let me answer this question because the chances<br/>are good that it's weighing on your mind. Here's<br/>the answer.<br/><br/>EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning,<br/>you fell in love with your partner. You anticipated<br/>their call, wanted their touch, and liked<br/>their idiosyncrasies.<br/><br/>Falling in love with your partner wasn't hard. In fact,<br/>it was a completely natural and spontaneous<br/>experience.<br/><br/>You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's<br/>called "falling" in love... Because it's happening TO<br/>YOU.<br/><br/>People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my<br/>feet." Think about the imagery of that expression.<br/>It implies that you were just standing there; doing<br/>nothing, and then something came along and<br/>happened TO YOU.<br/><br/>Falling is love is easy. It's a passive and<br/>spontaneous experience. But after a while, the<br/>euphoria of love fades. It's the natural cycle of<br/>EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone<br/>calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch<br/>is not always welcome (when it happens), and<br/>your partner's idiosyncrasies, instead of being<br/>cute, drive you nuts.<br/><br/>The symptoms of this stage vary with every<br/>relationship, but if you think about your<br/>relationship, you will notice a dramatic difference<br/>between the initial stage when you were in love<br/>and a much duller or even angry subsequent<br/>stage.<br/><br/>At this point, you and/or your partner might start<br/>asking, "Am I with the right person?" And as you<br/>and your partner reflect on the euphoria of the love<br/>you once had, you may begin to desire that<br/>experience with someone else. This is when<br/>realationship breaks down. People blame their<br/>partner for their unhappiness and look outside their<br/>relationship for fulfilment.<br/><br/>Infidelity fulfilment comes in all shapes and sizes.<br/>But sometimes people turn to work, church, a<br/>hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive<br/>substances. But the answer to this dilemma does<br/>NOT lie outside your relationship. It lies within it.<br/>I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with<br/>someone else. You could and TEMPORARILY<br/>you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same<br/>situation a few years later. Because (listen<br/>carefully to this):<br/><br/>THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN RELATIONSHIP<br/>IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S<br/>LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU<br/>FOUND.<br/><br/>SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous<br/>experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You<br/>can't "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it<br/>day in and day out. That's why we have the<br/>expression "the labour of love." Because it takes<br/>time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it<br/>takes WISDOM.<br/><br/>You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your<br/>relationship work.<br/><br/>Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery.<br/><br/>There are specific things you can do (with or<br/>without your partner) to succeed with your<br/>relationship.<br/><br/>Just as there are physical laws of the universe<br/>(such as gravity), there are also laws for<br/>relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise<br/>program makes you physically stronger, certain<br/>habits in your relationship WILL make your own<br/>relationship stronger. It's a direct cause and effect.<br/>If you know and apply the laws, the results are<br/>predictable... you can "make" love.<br/><br/>Love in relationship is indeed a "decision"... Not<br/>just a feeling.</span></span></i></span></span><br/><br/><br/><br/><br/><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-73178915562970917172007-07-18T18:49:00.000+08:002007-07-18T18:56:19.828+08:00Relationships<br/><span style="color:#663366;"><span><i><span><span>TRUST is a very important factor for all relationships. When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship. Lack of trust leads to suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity may result in separation. <br/><br/>A telephone operator told me that one day she received a phone call.She answered, "Public Utilities Board." There was silence. She repeated, "PUB."There was still no answer. When she was going to cut off the line, she Heard a lady's voice, "Oh, so this is PUB. Sorry, I got the number from my Husband's pocket but I do not know whose number it is." <br/><br/>Without mutual trust, just imagine what will happen to the couple if the telephone operator answered with just "hello" instead of "PUB". <br/><br/><br/>NO POINTING FINGERS <br/><br/>A man asked his father-in-law, "Many people praised you for a successful marriage. Could you please share with me your secret?" The father-in-law answered in a mile, "Never criticise your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a better husband than you." <br/><br/>We all look forward to being loved and respected. Many people are afraid of losing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at. This is the start of a war. We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves.If we forgive others, others will ignore our mistake too. <br/><br/><br/>CREATING PERFECT RELATIONSHIPS? <br/><br/>A person visited the government matchmaker for marriage, SDU, and requested "I am looking for a spouse. Please help me to find a suitable one." The SDU officer said, "Your requirements, please." <br/><br/>"Oh, good looking,polite, humorous, sporty, knowledgeable, good in singing and dancing.Willing to accompany me the whole day at home during my leisure hour,if I don't go out. Telling me interesting stories when I need companion for conversation and be silent when I want to rest." <br/><br/>The officer listened carefully and replied, "I understand you need television." <br/><br/>There is a saying that a perfect match can only be found between a blind wife and a deaf husband, because the blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the nagging of the wife. Many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetual perfect relationship. Unfortunately, when the excitement of love wears off, they wake up and discover that marriage is not a bed of roses. The nightmare begins. <br/><br/><br/>NO OVERPOWERING <br/><br/>Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another,or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character." It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness.It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations.. <br/><br/><br/>RIGHT SPEECH <br/><br/>There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "A speech will either prosper or ruin a nation." Many relationships break off because of wrong speech. When a couple is too close with each other,we always forget mutual respect and courtesy. We may say anything without considering if it would hurt the other party. <br/><br/>A friend and her millionaire husband visited their construction site.A worker who wore a helmet saw her and shouted, "Hi, Emily! Remember me? We used to date in the secondary school." On the way home, her millionaire husband teased her, "Luckily you married me. Otherwise you will be the wife of a construction worker." She answered, "You should appreciate that you married me. Otherwise, he will be the millionaire and not you." Frequently exchanging these remarks plants the seed for a bad relationship. <br/><br/><br/>PERSONAL PERCEPTION <br/><br/>Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be another man's poison. A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home, a boy commented, "Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the donkey?"Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walked besides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, "The husband is the head of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?"<br/><br/>Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey.Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, "How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman." The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey.Then, they met a young man. He commented, "Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you."<br/><br/>Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders. It seems to be the only choice left. Later, on a narrow bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled.They lost their balance and fell into the river. You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future.Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is clear.. <br/><br/><br/>BE PATIENT <br/><br/>This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital.Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. <br/><br/>When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, " Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked,"but when are my fingers going to grow back?" <br/><br/>The father went home & committed suicide. Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't. <br/><br/>Too often we fail to recognise the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge. People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever. Pause and ponder. Think before you act. Be patient. Forgive & forget. Love one and all. If you judge people, you have no time to love them.</span></span></i></span></span><span><i><span><span><br/><br/></span></span></i></span><i><span><span><br/></span></span></i><span><span><br/></span></span><span><br/></span><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-60682985502212234212007-07-18T18:47:00.000+08:002007-07-18T18:56:38.796+08:00Tips For A Healthy Relationship<span style="color:#990000;"><span><i><span><span> 1) Keep Talking. Almost all studies demonstrate a strong correlation between the quality of a couple's communtication skills and the quality of their relationship. Quality communications include taking the time to listen and understand your partner's perspective. You may not agree completely with where your partner is coming from, but often just feeling like you were heard is enough. Also being generous with sharing information about yourself elevates the level of trust and increases a sense of intimacy in many relationships. <br/><br/><br/>2) Fight Fair. Most relationships endure some level of conflict. Conflict is fairly normal in all relationships, even healthy ones. How conflicts are handled can either strengthen relationships or weaken them. When in a conflict, here are some helpful hints: <br/><br/>Stay on the topic: it doesn't help to bring back past grievances, or bring up everything that bothers you about your partner. Find a good time to talk it out. Working out a problem when you are at the height of anger or upset generally doesn't go well. Take a break and find a time when things have calmed down. <br/><br/>Resist put-downs: address the problem not the person. Overt criticism generally causes people to become defensive. Avoid blaming the other person for your thoughts and feelings. It's okay to apologize when you're wrong. Ask for help if you need it. Seek out an RA, Hall Director, Professor or Counselor if you and your partner need help in finding a resolution. <br/><br/>Learn to agree to disagree: Healthy relationships don't demand absolute agreement or conformity. <br/><br/>Don't hold grudges: Holding grudges sap our energy and keeps us focused on what is negative about our relationship. The winners and the losers. Healthy relationships focus more on resolving problems and not who comes out on top. <br/><br/><br/>3) Be Playful. Healthy couples take their relationshps seriously, but work at them with an attitude of playfulness. Fun and humor are a big part of how they relate to each other, as well as how they percieve the world around them. <br/><br/><br/>4) Be Realistic. In some relationships, couples feel so close they talk about their partner as a soulmate. Even in these relationships, partners realisticly are not everything the other person wants in a relationship. Healthy relationships mean accepting people as they are and not trying to change them. <br/><br/><br/>5) Be Trustworthy. Try to keep your promises. If you're not certain you can hold up your end, try not to make the promise in the first place. Even if it may be disappointing to your partner. Be dependable. <br/><br/><br/>6) Find Balance. Life is full of new opportunities. It's a time to experience and try new things. It's important to find a balance between the time you spend with your boyfriend/girlfriend and the time you spend with other friends, clubs, athletics etc...Healthy relationships are not dependent. <br/><br/><br/>7) Remember, relationships are a process. No one has a perfect relationship. When watching other couples, it may appear that everyone has a happier and healthier relationship than you. The truth is, most people feel just like you. Most are wondering about how healthy their relationships are, and if they are happy. Healthy relationships are a work in progress; you give them nurturance and they grow</span></span></i></span></span><br/><br/><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-88933418656197117832007-07-18T12:27:00.000+08:002007-07-18T12:45:44.291+08:00So... what next?<span style="color:#009900;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span><span><span><span><i><span>Woah... i finally felt a great big boulder disappear from my shoulder....<br/><br/>Yes... the conference is over... though i must say.... it was entirely DIFFERENT from what i had expected.<br/><br/>And i DO mean it in a good way... or a bad way... hmm... i'll let you decide...<br/><br/>Here's the thing... when i heard about a conference and all researchers are to present their paper infront of a crowd... i thought... woah... this is big...<br/><br/>Well... you guessed it... its nothing more than a slightly larger class presentation... the only difference is... there was a panel....<br/><br/>I had a great disadvantage with my research... it was far from normal... or at least i had comments like, "its a head of time" and things like "its not of this level".....<br/><br/>From a researcher point of view... it was a good thing... it meant that i was doign a pretty good job in choosing my topic AND... compliments from the lecturer... it was what she was looking for... a more narrowed down topic that focuses on the essence of the problem in the industry... not just a wide scope of management issues from a business point of view....<br/><br/>So, what next? <br/><br/>Ever since i assisted in a thesis about 1 1/2 years back, i found the topic of <br/>RISK MANAGEMENT a pretty interesting issue to discuss and focus on. Especially as event organizers.... <br/><br/>You guessed it... my next move is to continue my research on this topic.... crazy but its worth it. Coming up with my own manual and management plan... later implement it in a company... how cool is that.... whether it happens or not thats another story... something to look forward to...</span></i></span></span></span></span></span></span><br/><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-89144889087884952732007-07-03T22:54:00.000+08:002007-07-03T23:00:21.121+08:00two teardrops were floating down the river...<span style="color:#cc9933;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><i><span><strong><span><span>Don't be too good I will miss you.<br/>Don't be too caring, I might like you.<br/>Don't be too sweet, I might fall for<br/>you.<br/>It's hard for me to love you when you<br/>won't love me after all...<br/>Bottomline : A person who makes me<br/>loves him/her is actually a person who<br/>loves me more than I love him/her.<br/><br/><br/>If someone comes into your life<br/>and becomes a part of you<br/>but for some reasons he couldn't stay,<br/>don't cry too much...<br/>just be glad that your paths crossed<br/>and somehow he made you happy even for<br/>a while.<br/>Bottomline : Time will tell, If he's<br/>yours he will come back<br/><br/>Two tear drops were floating down the<br/>river.<br/>One teardrop said to the other,<br/>"I'm the teardrop of a girl who loved<br/>a man and lost him. Who are you?"<br/>"I'm the teardrop of the man who<br/>regret letting a girl go..."<br/><br/>Bottomline : Nobody will sympathise a<br/>person who constantly let chances<br/>passes by without making any efforts<br/>to salvage. We normally don't realise<br/>how important our loved and closed<br/>ones are until they left us, we'll<br/>start reminiscences which results<br/>misery.<br/><br/>Love can make you happy although often<br/>times it hurts.<br/>But love is only special if you give<br/>it to which it's worth.<br/>Bottomline : If you found someone who<br/>truly appreciates you, He/she deserves<br/>more of your love.<br/><br/>What If someone tells you this: I<br/>don't believe in courtship.<br/>It's just a waste of time. If I love<br/>the person, I'll tell her right away.<br/>But for you I will make an exception...<br/>just love me now and I'll court you<br/>forever...<br/>Bottomline : Love needs time to<br/>realise, there might be love at first<br/>sight but it takes time to let one<br/>gradually discover their affection<br/>towards another, miss him/her when<br/>he/she is not around, hope to hear<br/>from he/she when the person has not<br/>written or called.<br/><br/>It's always better to have found the<br/>courage to love even if you lose<br/>it in the end rather than never found<br/>love because you were too afraid<br/>of the challenge.<br/>Bottomline : Don't give up if you face<br/>or think that you have competitors.<br/>It's always better to try, if you<br/>suceed, the reward is more than you<br/>can expect. but if you don't try or<br/>don't summon up the courage, you might<br/>lose the one you like/love forever...<br/><br/>The greatest challenge in our life is<br/>to find someone who knows our flaws<br/>and differences and yet still<br/>willingly embraces you with so much<br/>love.<br/>Bottomline : Love is a means of self<br/>giving and self sacrificsing, if<br/>he/she knows your flaws and still<br/>willing to accept you, continue to<br/>like/love you as you are or even more,<br/>boy, you are lucky! This person truly<br/>deserves your love and affection.<br/><br/>The spaces between our fingers were<br/>created so that another person's<br/>fingers could fill them in.<br/>Bottomline : open your heart, let<br/>people love you, never Doubt their<br/>intentions, sincerity can be felt by<br/>the heart.<br/><br/>When you love, it is not for you to be<br/>understood but for you To understand;<br/>not for you to take but for you to be<br/>taken; to listen not to dictate; to<br/>sacrifice and not to demand; not to<br/>count or measure but to love.</span></span></strong></span></i></span></span></span><br/><br/><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-607604110150989802007-06-27T23:22:00.000+08:002007-06-27T23:52:38.702+08:00A relationship worth fighting for....<div align="center"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>"Would you marry a person who loves you or the person you love?"</i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><div align="left"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>A good question asked...</i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>Perhaps by taking a look at my current relationship would help define my answer.</i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>After being in and out of relationships that have broken me into pieces... i am finally with a man whom i think is worth it.</i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>Our odd "relationship" started way before we met. And for those 2 years, we've been getting along just fine. We talk, we laugh, we tell each other things. </i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>When we finally met, i think i speak for the both of us when i say, "We were clueless." We know that we were in a "relationship" for the past years and we feel that we know each other. But there we were, face to face. Speechless. Frankly, i was "I can't believe it, after all these while, there he is." Being excited is one thing, feeling awkward is another.</i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i> </i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>And after 6 weeks of actually being together, it was time for him to leave. I knew he had to leave someday but it felt like a part of me leaving with him.</i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i> </i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>And to think, we had only been together in a relationship for more or less 2 weeks. Everything was happening too fast, too soon. Just when i was getting used to having someone there, i had to let go. It did cross my mind that this relationship might not last as soon as he boards the plane.</i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>After a while of being apart, more and more things happened. More issues, arguments, disagreeing with each other, fighting for the littlest things. It tore me apart, bit by bit. The more we argued the more my heart suffered. </i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>So many times i thought of ending things and yet so many times i held on. Fact is, i don't want to let go. I give in and work things out. And he being him, will always try to talk me out of it. </i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>No matter how often or what we argue about, we still stop at one point and start working things out together. I've never stopped appreciating the courage that he has for the both of us. Being apart has not been easy for the both of us.</i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>So, i guess the question is not about marrying someone who loves you OR marrying someone you love. </i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>It's more of whether you can live with that person. To work things out together and to go through the rest of the years together. Not as 2 individuals but as 2 people who care enough about each other so much so they are willing to stop and start working things out.</i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>I tell myself everyday that this IS the relationship worth fighting for. For all the things that we've been through and for all the hard times we've been together, it is well worth it. </i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>We learn from each other, we keep each other going. </i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>The more you learn from each other further in live, the more you </i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>will learn to </i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>cherish & love </i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>one another. That is what keeps us going. </i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span></div></div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>If you find that person, i guarantee you there will be love. There will be a relationship where both </i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i><br/></i></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#3366ff;"><i>parties will cherish each other. And that is what you would want in your life. </i></span></span></span><br/><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-75383496221716236012007-04-02T11:38:00.000+08:002007-04-02T11:39:20.214+08:00The Natural Laws Of Everyday Life1. Law of Mechanical Repair:<br />After your hands become coated with<br />grease, your nose will begin to itch.<br /><br />2. Law of the Telephone:<br />When you dial a wrong number,you never<br />get an engaged one.<br /><br />3.Law of the Alibi:<br />If you tell the boss you were late for<br />work because you had a flat tire, the<br />next morning you will have a flat tire.<br /><br />4. Variation Law of Traffic Jams:<br />If you change queues in traffic, the<br />one you have left will start to move<br />faster than the one you are in now.<br /><br />5. THEORY of Bathing<br />When the body is immersed in water,the<br />telephone rings.<br /><br />6.LAW OF CLOSE ENCOUNTERS<br />The probability of meeting someone you<br />know increases when you are with<br />someone you don't want to be seen with.<br /><br />7. LAW of the RESULT<br />When you try to prove to someone that a<br />machine won't work, it will.<br /><br />8.LAW OF BIOMECHANICS<br />The severity of the itch is inversely<br />proportional to the reach.<br /><br />9.THEATRE RULE<br />At any event, the people whose seats<br />are furthest from the aisle arrive<br />last.<br /><br />10.LAW OF COFFEE<br />As soon as you sit down to a cup of hot<br />coffee, your boss will<br />ask you to do something which will last<br />until the coffee is cold.<div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-1169298934577529282007-01-20T21:06:00.000+08:002007-01-20T21:15:34.590+08:00I curse the day i was given this gift/curse<span style="color:#6633ff;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:85%;">There are things that i feel and can't explain. Actually, who am i kidding. I know exactly what's going on. My heart is telling me something is wrong. Something is forcing us apart. I don't want to hide anymore. Those feelings are strong and it has been around since early this week. I can't help but noticed that you're shying away from me. More and more everyday. Our conversation gets weaker and weaker. And now, there is nothing to talk about. </span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><br/></span></span><span style="color:#cc66cc;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><br/>Curse this feeling that lurks in my senses. Curse this mind that knows it all. Curse this heart that feels it all. I wish i am wrong. I really do.... But why am i still weeping? I've been lying to myself..... I have not been true.</span></span></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br/></span><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-1163310821914792202006-11-12T13:51:00.000+08:002007-06-28T00:00:30.798+08:00<span style="color:#3333ff;"><i><span><span><span>Of War & Conquest<br/><br/>The way to a guy’s heart is to not be obsessed over the love you have for him. Obsession only leads to confusion and the disorientation of the mind. There is no one true way to catch a guy or gain his attention. Mostly, all guys are different in many a way as women are different from each other. There is no one sure way. <br/><br/>My subject proved that obsession led to her own confusion and thus ending up in a situation most unfavorable to both parties. Often than not, third parties get caught in her squabble and obsession of his love. Over the past 12 months or so, the subject evolved from having a broken heart to leading a life of endless search for care and comfort which eventually turned into a simple combination of love, hate and obsession. After a moment of search, the unsuspecting victim opens the gates to his life to her and allowing himself to be a part of hers. Slowly but surely, the unsuspecting victim is lured into a simple world of like, love and soon to be obsession.<br/>________________________________________________________________________<br/><br/>She eventually stumbled upon a kingdom where their king was to be the love of her life. At the first stage of her conquest, she was tried and tested with many different obstacles. None of which were simple arithmetic. He being king of a prosperous kingdom and her being a simple peasant limited her chances of the long awaited fairytale life with her knight in shining armor. Nonetheless, her first victory saw her triumphant when he was ordered to exile from his very own kingdom. Life gradually became less complicated now that both parties were of the similar stature. A once forbidden love turned into the beginning of a wonderful dream for her. <br/><br/>Not long after he was exiled, he began rebuilding a new kingdom. This new kingdom was protected and served by a handful of knights that remained loyal to him till today. The knights remained true and vowed to protect and serve their king. Defensive of their king, the knights did their utmost to keep their king away from harm. Wanting to be the queen of this new kingdom, she went through books and scriptures in search of ways to gain the love and trust of her king. In views of establishing his new empire, the king however, declined her love for him. <br/><br/>She endlessly remained faithful in hopes of one day the king will see her as the queen of his new kingdom. Failing which, she turned to sorcery and witchcraft. The more she used her newly acquired skills, the more it began to over power her. As each day past, the darkness of her heart grew and her obsession of her once pure love for her king is now a dark obsession to imprison the king and rule his kingdom as her own.<br/><br/>Noticing the change and her intentions, his knights fought and protected him till he ordered her to be exiled from his kingdom and never to return to his land till she saw her ways and changed. Her hatred for the knights grew stronger and stronger as the days past living in exile. <br/><br/>The once hopeful light of a new daybreak has now turned into a new day of plot for revenge. Seeking vengeance, she vowed to rid the knights that once fought for the king and contributed to her exile. <br/><br/>Till this day, his knights stand strong, protecting their king and remained as her adversary, ridding her of her chances to conquer the kingdom of his heart.<br/><br/>_________________________________________________________________________<br/><br/>The subject’s hopes of love care and comfort started out as a normal courtship. However, when things did not turn out the way she had expected, the answer to her equation became more and more complex. <br/><br/>The subject was presented with a riddle of which the answer is as clear as the sky is blue. Till today, she has failed to answer the riddle. Her obsession in getting the answer clouded her mind and made thinking complicated, inconclusive. Neglecting the simple facts that were presented to her and refusing to accept the fact that the answer is in fact that simple, she is determined to proving it otherwise. <br/><br/> </span></span></span></i></span><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-1159890432817133942006-10-03T23:38:00.000+08:002006-10-03T23:51:52.843+08:00No regrets<span style="color:#ccccff;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><font><font><strong><font><font><font>You and i have come a long way. <br/><br/>I don't regret the day i thought of being with you. It remains the same till today. It is kinda strange that i still feel that way about you. Nevertheless, i </span><span style="color:#00cccc;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><font><font><strong><font><font><font>will<strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font> never forget</span></span></span><span style="color:#ccccff;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font> what you did to me. <br/><br/>Though the good times still fresh in my memories, there is a piece of it that will forever be stained by your acts of</span><span style="color:#00cccc;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font> <strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font>deceive and lies</span></span></span><span style="color:#ccccff;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font>.<br/><br/>No matter how much i see myself being with you or how much i want to be there for you all the time, i know for a fact that there is no way i can be with you </span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><span style="color:#00cccc;">long enough to last a relationship</span></span><span style="color:#ccccff;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font>.<br/><br/>Odd relationships come and go. You're one of them. Fragile but yet hopeful. Confusing as it is, i've made my choice and right now, </span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><span style="color:#00cccc;">my choice is you</span></span><span style="color:#ccccff;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font>. I guess you and i, are just meant to be and remain as an </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><span style="color:#00cccc;"></span>odd relationship</span></span></span></span><span style="color:#ccccff;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font>.</span></span></span></span><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong span=""><strong><font><font><font><font><strong span=""><font><font><strong><font><font><font><strong font=""><br/></span><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-1159103303853963912006-09-24T21:01:00.000+08:002006-09-24T21:46:40.100+08:00Memorable quotes<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#ff6600;">I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.<br />I hate the way you drive my car.<br />I hate it when you stare.<br />I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind.<br />I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme.<br />I hate it, I hate the way you're always right.<br />I hate it when you lie.<br />I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.<br />I hate it that you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.<br />But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.<br />Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.</span><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-1143197606949093032006-03-24T18:49:00.000+08:002006-03-26T12:31:00.383+08:00Unbelievable<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="color:#ff6666;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>Always said I would know where to find love, </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough, </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>But some times I just felt I could give up. </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>But you came and you changed my whole world now, </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>I'm somewhere I've never been before. </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>Now I see, what love means. </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>[Chorus] </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>It's so unbelievable, </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>And I don't want to let it go, </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>Something so beautiful, </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>Flowing down like a waterfall. </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>I feel like you've always been, </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>Forever a part of me. </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,</strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be. </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now, </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,</strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>I was lost and you've rescued me some how-. </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me, </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>And I've never been here before. </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>Now I see, what love means. </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>([Chorus]) </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost, </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>I cant help but break down, and cry. </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>Ohh yeah, break down and cry. </strong></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>([Chorus]) </strong></span><br /><strong><span style="font-size:85%;">Now I see, what love means</span> </strong></span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-1136309527355347592006-01-04T01:26:00.000+08:002006-01-04T01:32:07.373+08:00<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#9999ff;"><strong>Good god..... I'm so sleepy but i can't seem to fall asleep. This is my second time coming back online since i first decided to go to sleep. I never got to it.... Sheesh.... What exactly is keeping me up? That freaking neslo ice or things in my mind?</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#9999ff;"><strong></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#9999ff;"><strong>The neslo i can understand.. but i am yawning... it doesn't make sense....</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#9999ff;"><strong></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#9999ff;"><strong>Something must be in my head... but what?? Sometimes it really makes you wonder, doesn't it?</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#9999ff;"><strong></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#9999ff;"><strong>I've been too tired to sleep yes.... but this is ridiculous!!!! </strong></span><br /><span style="color:#9999ff;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-1135703886889087582005-12-28T01:17:00.000+08:002005-12-28T01:18:06.910+08:00<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#ffccff;"><strong>He’s always on my mind<br />From the time I wake up till I close my eyes<br />He’s everywhere I go<br />He’s all I know<br />Though he’s so far away<br />It just keep getting stronger<br />Everyday<br />Even now he’s gone<br />I’m still holding on<br />So, tell me where do I start cause it’s breaking my heart<br />Don’t want to let him go<br />Maybe my love will come back someday<br />Only heaven knows<br />And maybe our hearts will find their way<br />Only heaven knows<br />And all I can do is hope and pray<br />Cause heaven knows<br />My friends keep telling me<br />That if you really love him<br />You got to set him free<br />If he returns in kind<br />I’ll know he’s mine<br />Tell me where do I start<br />Cause its breaking my heart<br />Don’t want to let him go<br />Maybe my love will come back someday<br />Only heaven knows<br />And maybe our hearts will find their way<br />Only heaven knows<br />And all I can do is hope and pray<br />Cause heaven knows<br />Why I live in despair<br />Cause wide awake I’m dreaming<br />I know he’s never there<br />And all the time I act so brave I’m shaking inside<br />Why does it hurt me so?<br />Maybe my love will come back someday<br />Only heaven knows<br />And maybe our hearts will find their way<br />Only heaven knows<br />And all I can do is hope and pray<br />Cause heaven knows</strong></span><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-1135702778698174142005-12-28T00:45:00.000+08:002005-12-28T01:19:12.596+08:00<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#996633;">I've waited patiently...... I stood by myself loving and caring for you.... I ask for nothing more than a thought of me once in a while or a special smile. I've waited long and hard and i think it's time i stop. I think it's time to leave and cease thinking about you. I chose to forget and so it begins. </span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#996633;">I've never lied to you nor have i not trusted you. Never have i stopped loving nor caring for you. I've been standing in your shadows long enough and its time i fade away. You knew i will always be there for you. If ever you call, i'll still be there. My eternal promise to you. </span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#996633;">I can no longer endure your everlasting ignorance nor can i endure you taking advantage of me. I remember clearly who you are.... Really i do. I never forgot who you are and i think i never will. That is why, and sad to say, I have to leave and tell this lie. I told you once that i will just one day fade out and eventually disappear from your life. If ever you remember me, it'll be too late. I am no longer around.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#996633;">It is clear where i should go and what i should do. I miss you and i love you. I've tried, i tried really hard. It is never easy for me and it will never be. To say i don't remember you and walk away. And it wasn't easy for me either with you ignoring me all these time and pretended i didn't exist. </span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#996633;">Now that i'm gone. Maybe you'll finally think of me and remember me. Or maybe i'll just fade and disappear without you even noticing.</span><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-1134845002337543782005-12-18T02:34:00.000+08:002005-12-18T02:43:22.373+08:00What does it mean by moving on?Once again, just when i managed to stop thinking about you, someone mentions you. Everything just comes back. I really don't want to think about you anymore. I want to stop missing you. I want to forget...... I really want to not have anything to do with you. I chose not to be around you anymore..... I love you and i miss you... But i can't be around you anymore.<br /><br />Choices are hard to make. I've made my choice. I can't love someone who does not even know how i feel. I can't love someone who does not think about me. I can't love someone who does not miss me.<br /><br />Loving you has never been harder. I want so much to be there for you but i can't. I really don't know how to go on....<div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-1134239480834712552005-12-11T01:03:00.000+08:002005-12-11T02:31:24.323+08:00A little time spent together....<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ff6600;">After a while of not being able to see or talk to you for no apparent reason...... I am glad that i finally had some time with you alone. Not much has been said in the 5 hours.... but the eyes and smiles were enough to make it a great day...... Haven't really felt so easily contented in a while. Everything was simple as it was.... just a movie and some extra time to walk around looking for Christmas decorations. It's true that time flies when you are having fun. I did! I enjoyed myself truly..... No regrets... No complains..... Just a good 5 hours worth of smiles, jokes and laughs.</span><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-1132755408605159502005-11-23T21:48:00.000+08:002005-11-24T00:11:56.236+08:00Still believe you'll walk through my door.... I miss you...<span style="color:#ff99ff;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;">Hey, thought i'd tell you what was on my mind the past few days. I can't believe that i am still so in love with you. I've tried so many ways to forget and of course, i did not succeed. While you were in a relationship, i learned how to let you go but still i love you. I learn to tell myself that i should be happy for you that you have someone you love by your side and that made you happy. Seeing you happy makes me happy but i still love you. I successfully accepted and respected the both of you being my friends and of course the both of you being a couple. I was actually happy for the both of you. And i became friends with her as well. Again. Everything was solid till someone stepped in. I tried my very best to see you safe and cherish your relationship with her as much as possible. Honestly, i still love you but i rather see you with her than anyone else. I really did not want you to throw everything away just like that. She is after all a very nice person. Both she and i know that there is nothing we can do to stop you from doing whatever you want to do. That is why i was around to keep you safe and reminded. I love you too much to see you hurt her. I love you too much to see you throw away a perfectly good relationship. From the heart, as soon as i know that i cannot have you for myself no matter how hard i try, i realise that i have given up chasing but i still love you.<br />Yes, at times of need and care i wished you would be the one who would be there for me. But in all honesty, you were only there once. The time when i needed you most. The time when i needed a shoulder to cry on. You were there. The other times i wouldn't say because you just weren't there. Everytime i cry when i was all alone with no one to turn to. Up until today, you are still the first person i think of when things happen to me whether good or bad.<br />I never really understood why with just one smile i can be contented. You know how to put a smile on my face. I hate you for that, but i still love you. Everytime i see you smile, i can't help it but smile. I guess, that is all i wanted, all i needed.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;">But in all honesty, there is nothing i see in future with you right now. It would be perfect if you grew up and still care for me the same way you do now. But somehow, i just miss you a lot. Maybe leaving will be a good idea. Letting go was never easy. I've never expected something like this could happen. I have tried letting go for almost 3 times now. Finally, it worked. But something else had to change things. Just when i was adapted to the new change, something changes again. The adaptation is never ending. Hate is when that happens. Sometimes i wished i did not have a heart. I wished i did not know what love is. I wished so much just to be happy. I am... but there is no one to share it with. What's the use of all the success if you don't have anyone to share it with?</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;">That is something i will not understand... my heart. Sometimes i wished you will somehow walk back into my life but part of me in all rationality tells me that i am not the one he loves. Why? I ask myself why do i still love someone so much just to find out the feeling is not mutual? Why?</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;">Will you still walk through my door? I really missed you.....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;">That is something that i would really want to tell him right now. Right this moment. But i can't. There is never a right time for me to tell him anything. Timing is a bitch when it comes to talking to him about things like these. Will there ever be a time for me to ever tell him all that is in my heart? Is it worth it?</span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-1132591327830790052005-11-22T00:26:00.000+08:002005-11-22T00:42:07.860+08:00I do not understand......<span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;">Hearing the news that she has broken up with him STILL came to me as a shock even though i already knew what she was going to do 3 weeks ago. Nontheless, i was speechless. Maybe it's because i was thinking about him at that time. I wondered, how he is and how he would've have taken the news. The instant i heard that he was crying, a small tear shed from my eyes. I wanted so much to call him and comfort him and let him know that i am there for him. But, i was to pretend that i knew nothing about it till he tells me. </span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;">Not long after that, he came online. I saw his broken heart and asked casually if he was alright. He told me the whole thing. That she left him for another guy. There i was thinking, she wouldn't do such a thing. She told me she knew how it felt like and she would never do such things to him.</span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;">Later, i spoke to her and yes. She finally told me the truth. She had another guy. In an instant, i thought, what a bitch. Lying once before and now...... I was speechless for a second or two. I was not angry at all for what she has done. I doubt i knew what was going on in my head let alone my heart. But they both tell me that i shouldn't be angry at her for her actions and not to hate her. I did not know why.</span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;">I have felt the immense pain of having someone take someone away from me. And she was the one who did it. And now here she is, doing it again to another girl who was in a 8 years relationship. I was thinking to myself.... What is she trying to do? Doesn't she understand the pain?</span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;">The only thing my heart is telling me to do is i should congratulate her with all my heart and be happy for her. But at the same time, warn her that if that guy can leave a 8 years relationship, anything can happen between them now. </span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;">The thing that i do not understand is, how come i am not mad at her? And why am i being so calm about all this? The fact that i kept telling her that i understand and i do not hate her confuses me more. </span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;">Do i really understand how she feels and at the same time understand the pain that she has caused the girl and him? Am i turning into a "i've experienced it and i understand" kinda person to the extend of forgiving everything that has gone wrong? Or am i going mad?</span><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-1131550968479210322005-11-09T23:29:00.000+08:002005-11-10T00:05:31.326+08:00What have i done?<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;">Feeling of disappointment and depression is building up in me.... I am begining to doubt if my intentions of helping you was really worth it.... and it is still right? Have i lost my mind to indecisions?<br /><br />I wish i could still tell you how much i love you. I know i can't and i have no right to share this love with you.<br /><br />Thorn between being a friend and an individual... i am trapped in my own game. A game that shouldn't have started. If only i let you be... if only i let you go. Knowing i can do something.. knowing that i have the power to shed you from all this... i couldn't stand by and not do anything.<br /><br />Perhaps my actions were wrong in the first place. Maybe you did want to have your way. Maybe you are not who i thought you were. Once again, my intuition was wrong. Clouded by my heart's judgement. Blinded by the love for the one i love. I guess it was just not my place and duty to be protecting you. Maybe GOD put me in this position to make me realise that i am NOT the one who is placed next to him to shed him from all these. I always believe.... GOD has his reasons for doing things. Yes, i do believe in that.<br /><br />No matter how much i try..... no matter what i do.... it just does not ammount to the love i have for him. Perhaps the best way to help you, is to let you be on your own.. with me out of the picture. Yes.... i like being with you. I like the way you make me smile. But i have shed an equal amount of tears in the process.<br /><br />I begin to question myself if all this is worth it. In an instant, i will answer yes. Because this is all that i can do. Perhaps my biggest down fall is that i care to much. I must learn to be more persistant in setting my boundaries. Even in helping him.<br /><br />It was never easy being around him. Yes, i have a lot of interesting and enjoyable moments with him. But just being able to tell him how much i still care for him kills me. I made a mistake in the past and i am paying for it. It was one mistake that is eating me alive and one that i will not forget. It is true... as long as i have him around, i will never come out of this deep hole that i have fallen in. As long as i have him around, i will never see the light that is shining on the rope. The very rope that leads to the top of the hole.<br /><br />Why does life have to be so difficult? Yes.... no one said life was easy... Definitely not easy when you have more than one person in it. Everything you do or say may or may not effect the people around you. I remember that very question, "is being an adult more complicated than being a child". That is a definite yes!!!<br /><br />But i have to look at myself too... i have made yet another mistake. I betrayed my friends and the people i care for. I failed to consider and failed to be in control. Falling once again is just going to make me stronger. However, before i stand again, i have to be able to gather the strength to stand up.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:85%;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:85%;">I know i should not be blaming myself for all that has happened.... Perhaps i did not make so much of a mistake. But what i do know is.... I already made a mistake. Any mistake, big or small... is already a good reason for me to stop and think. Think... it is something that i have been overlooking. </span><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:85%;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:85%;">Blocking what other people tell me is not going to help. But too much of information..... too many things to do.... to many things to decide. Make me feel... am i worthy? Did i make the mistake? I know i made a huge mistake!!! </span><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:85%;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:85%;">No one is going to help me solve this problem. No one is going to be there when i fall. But what i do know is.... I have my conscience to be my guide. But even with my conscience guiding me.... My intentions may be the very thing that is clouding my conscience leading to my judgement. </span><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:85%;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:85%;">I am not such a good friend as i thought i was. Maybe i should leave this people and find another place with another group of people to start afresh. No matter how or what they are telling me about people do make mistakes, i still have my guilt and conscience to answer to. I cannot let things be like this anymore. </span><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:85%;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:85%;">Does leaving mean i am giving up on my friends once again? Does it mean that i do not appreciate my friends? Am i going to make things worst? Does is mean that i am giving in and facing defeat? or Does it mean doing the right thing? </span><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:85%;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:85%;">Is there another way to make this work. I know.... no matter what i decide, nothing will be the same and nothing in my life will ever be the same again. It is something that i have brought upon myself and i blame no one but myself. Life couldn't be any easier...... It is just part of life.... its vicious... and its a cycle. There is no end.... there is no begining.... "It ends, it begins"</span><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-1129465989993645972005-10-16T18:36:00.000+08:002005-10-17T23:10:51.633+08:00An EXPERIENCE to REMEMBER!!!<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;">15th October 2005, Saturday</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;">SSWE.... </span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;">2.30pm.... Registered and signed in for the day..... got our uniforms.... gosh!!! First look at the uniforms... and they were going like..... "Horrible looking things"..... I didn't think much of the uniforms... but what do you expect for a casual worker??</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;">In the locker room.... Nothing less than "I look ridiculous in this!!..... I am not going to be seen in this outfit"... To me... Oh well.... You are on a compulsory assignment... You have no choice. That is what being in this industry is all about.... You want to learn, you start low.....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;">3.00pm.... Got changed and went to the training room.... Signed in for the job....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;">3.30pm.... Met Encik Shamil... Got the low down from him for our grooming. I do agree with him about the other's grooming... Ladies, we are here to put on a fashion show nor be pretty. We are here to serve. Coloured bra, loose accessories, fringe all over the face. Nice to look at but not presentable. Got permission to leave the premise to acquire the proper groooming materials.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;">4.30pm.... Well groomed.... Back to the exhibition hall for our tour of the hall and where things were. </span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;">5.10pm... Break time for the non muslim's. Down to the cafeteria. With the afternoon serving left and the evening dishes not out, it was the only thing we had. No choice. What is there to complain about? Yes, it's cold and tasteless but you have to eat! I didn't like it either but come on, one meal like that won't kill you. Talk about survival skills??!!! Where on earth are your sense of reality girls??</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;">5.40pm.... Back to the hall for the final briefing.... Divided to groups. I was under Encik Shamsul. Nice guy. Very pleasent. I had a good time working with him. There was another 2 males and 3 females, all permenant staff. </span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;">6.30pm.... Time to start running and getting ready. Drinks to be poured and cutlery's to be checked and plates to be inspected.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;">7.00pm.... Sound of the gong signified the starting of the Ramadhan Buffet. Guests to be seated and pelita to be lit. Tray jacks to be brought out and the serving begins. </span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"></span><br /><span style="color:#333399;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;">9.00pm.... As soon as the guests started leaving for the night, the only left to do was to clear all remaining soiled plates, goblets and cutlery.</span></span><br /><span style="color:#333399;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:85%;color:#333399;">9.00pm.... Reseted the table for the following night.... I alone set 26 pax.... Not bad for a first timer..... =)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-1128774318674969412005-10-08T19:59:00.000+08:002005-10-08T20:25:18.680+08:00Disappointed in you.......I can't help but to think that you've begining to leave me out once again.... This has happened before and it's begining to seem way too familiar. The last time you acted this way..... it marked the end of our relationship. I wonder what is going to happen now.... when we are not in a relationship..... end of friendship?? Perhaps.....<br /><br />I can't help but to think that i will lose you all over again. I ask myself why did we ever know each other in the first place. I ask myself.... why did you ever come in to my life. Why allow us to come together time after time and never having us together??<br /><br />I thought i've decided to let things go. But why does it always have to be easier said than done? Isn't there an easier way to deal with this kind of matters? Yes yes... such as life.... the ironies are endless....<br /><br />I know i am not perfect... I know i never will be.... Part of me wished i hit you harder but part of me now wished i didn't have the chance to hit you at all. At least for now, i wished i had nothing to do with you anymore. You would be happier... Perhaps. I used to be able to read you. Not anymore. I've lost it.... Lost it all.... Why?<div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16803055.post-1128690760357495902005-10-02T20:52:00.000+08:002005-10-07T21:14:33.390+08:00Thinking too much?? Perhaps.....<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"><strong>His message to me, </strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"><strong></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"><strong>"I have a little angel flying around with a hammer, each person he hits gets a little bit of my luv.... i hope he beats u up like crazy... =p"</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"><strong></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"><strong>My reply,</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"><strong></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"><strong>"I caught your poor lil angel and imprisoned it. Gonna make him my minnion n he's coming you way... to hit u so hard u won't 4get he was sent by me!"</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"><strong></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"><strong>His reply,</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"><strong></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"><strong>"Hmm... i guess this person knows that u want him to be hit real hard. What can he say except he has been hit but not hard enough the last time. I guess he's a jackass"</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"><strong></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#333399;"><strong>My reply,</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;"><strong><span style="color:#333399;">"I don't think its him being a jackass.. my angel has trouble with his hitting skills. Happens when he doesn't use it often. Maybe he needs more training"</span></strong> </span><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:85%;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#3366ff;">After this round of messages, i was more than happy. Happy to find out that i actually got his love for a moment. Just for a moment. Nevertheless... there is always a reminder.... He is no longer there for me.... No matter what happens to me... There is no assurance that he'll be there for me. Hopes and faith is not going to get me anywhere when he is concerned.... From the heart.... a lil bit of it still has his name written all over it. </span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#3366ff;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#3366ff;">Sometimes, i do fool myself into believing that he will somehow, someday come back to me. As soon as i awake from this wishful fantasy, i know that now, he belongs to someone else. No matter what, at this present moment, that feeling still lingers. Once in a while, it'll emerge and send a strain of emotions down my spine. My heart grows fond. </span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#3366ff;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#3366ff;">Yes, it might seem silly and naive. As if indulging in a childish fantasy. I beg to differ...... It has not been easy for me.... and i will say, it is still not easy for me to surpress those feelings. Nevertheless, i've learnt a very important lesson.... "If you truly love that someone, you would want to see them happy. If you want to see that someone happy, you have to let go"... That is how it is now for me...... Can't say i am entirely happy... but part of me is while the other part is trying to supress those feelings.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#3366ff;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#3366ff;">If he only knew, every look, every smile, every hug, every kiss, every word, every smell, every glance, every stare...... brings back a lot of memories. Sweet memories that will lie deep within me. He may not be around for me anymore but a piece of him still remains in my mind, in my heart. </span><div class="blogger-post-footer">"Live life each day as you would climb a mountain.
An occasional glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind,
but many beautiful scenes are to be observed from each vantage point.
Climb slowly, steadily, enjoying each passing moment, and the view from
the summit will prove to be ASTONISHING!!!"</div>lil_girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11395231939478761768noreply@blogger.com0